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Monday, October 20, 2008

the first step's usually the hardest and i guess it wasn't that hard after all. i don't know how i can even think travelling that 1 hour isn't worthy because you girls are really my precious gems. though there were thoughts spilling in my head, i managed to relax. i had so much fun. it's been so long since i talked that much and listened that much.

the cosy feeling of four people crammed onto a single bed laughing and talking and reasoning. 3am supper at simpang bedok followed by more talks. and yet more talks till the sky begun to light up. yet when everything seemed so perfect and i couldn't leave to go back though i had things to do, i was dealt with a blow.

i guess it's in me to take it hard even when things don't happen to me. especially so with you both. it's almost as though it's me. it feels too real and too scary. i'm sad. and i hope with all my heart that things work out. it's never gonna be the same again if it remains this way.

there are times i lose faith in my own and i looked at yours for strength. so don't let it go away. so many times i felt like giving up yet i looked at you both and know that it will work out cos it always does for you too. everything seems so scary so hurting. it crushed me.

and those other things. we're so united in our strengths. it's amazing what good bad things can do to a group of people. how it brings people together and unite their hearts.

so many discoveries this weekend and it's still coming at us. and with some it saddens me. others crack me up. there's one in particular that scares me. am i like that too?

such a long weekend. so many things happened. i realised how much i miss you girls (4-cute-ppl-only) and things are still going to happen and ongoing now. we'll all stand in this together. till the end.

i realise i can live without you, but i choose not to. i can. but i don't want to.

i'm not that weak after all and there are more things in life than...

i've been unproductive but it's all worth it. i've failed to do any work but i've learnt alot this weekend.

it has been arduous but we're here. we'll stay. you said you'll never go. does it still count?

and thank you, you for still caring. i hope it works out for you and i'll always be here too.
-cheryl
1:30 AM





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