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Friday, April 11, 2008

life is currently keeping me in suspense. like how i don't know if i'm going to university yet. like how there are many things to look forward to such as AUSSIE FLOORBALL OPEN yet its still 3 over months away. like how i'm about to celebrate a one year anniversary soon but its still about a week or two to go...i realise i am a very impatient person. the most frequent words that appear in my mind is "I CAN'T WAIT!"

i think the most pressing issue in my mind is the university issue. i've been hearing from friends lately. some are leaving sg to aussie to work/study, others are already pursuing degrees overseas. somehow there's a tinge of envy in my heart. it is half a dream. but i know i will never go, can never go and will not want to go, even though it's half a dream. there are liabilities.

maybe that half a dream will turn into a full dream someday. just not anytime soon. i'm not ready. neither is my pocket deep enough. neither am i willing, to leave a love behind.

today is more than fulfilling. haircut check. facial check. met pretty people for lunch check. mahjong session check. lost some money for carmen CHECK. the last part sucks but i like how today is. filled with activities and people.

and now the whole house is a dead quiet and here i am still wide awake, typing louding on my keyboard. i kinda like this lonesome feeling. i kinda like being awake in the middle of a quiet night. sometimes.

someday i want to start my own business. it doesn't have to be big. but i know i will be happy, working hard for myself. to own something. and the next thing. and many other things beyond. i should start working towards that goal.

i can't wait for saturday's tp training. i can't wait. i can't wait. there are too many things i can't wait for...i need to learn to control my excitement and adrenaline. i'm too energetic for my own good sometimes.

mild is never a word for me.

you know what? i can't wait for you to get well.
-cheryl
1:07 AM





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