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Monday, January 28, 2008

the day i officially finish my last day will represent a kind of liberation. i'll be so relieved it's all over. it's been such a drag sometimes with all these projects. so many things i'm wanting to do, but i can't. education is such a long, slow and dreary process. and we'll never know where we'll end up in.

i sometimes envy those who can focus and project their energy so much into their academics that they do so well. they have many choices. but that's for sometimes. i don't believe in studying so hard. i believe in living a life. i wonder what our most basic purpose of existence is. it has been overshadowed by increasing living standards.

what a dreary monday morning. bounded by schoolwork and an overcast sky. and i wish i was somewhere out there. under the pouring skies.

i feel so inadequate in a team for the best to shine. i'm ill-polished and i don't shine. not at all. where was the shining star that used to be so full of confidence? i lack all those and i can't find them back. i feel inadequate. tired. and i wish i was better than that. i have a kind and caring coach. i have fun-loving teammates. but i don't have skills. i can't survive. my favourite place on the court is the bench.

what a way to start the week.
-cheryl
9:38 AM





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