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Saturday, December 01, 2007

it just feels better and better being part of this big family. these wonderful people who share the same passion, the same humour, the same sweat and laughter and beautiful times together. makes me happy and makes me want to play harder, train harder and play better on the court. the court that we all share, but may not all get to play on.

it is hard sometimes, i really don't know what to do or how to play or where to run. sometimes i feel weak and i really am weak. but i really want to improve. just need chances. more chances. please be more patient. cos sometimes, it's really hard trying so hard.

my dad asked me why play if we knew we'll win most or all of the games. i thought for abit. we're playing at a higher level as a team than most teams. but we've so much more to learn. and we have to constantly improve. everyone's vying for the position that we now stand in and have stood in for the past 10 years. and we're their benchmark. we have to set a higher standard each time. i think we will continue to shine. because now, we're more than a team. it feels like a great big family.

i just need the confidence. i need encouragement. and i need alot of patience and perserverence. i get scared easily, not by my opponents but by my own teammates. that is the worse thing to fear. and i think i cannot let it stand in my way. wilna was right to say that if i don't peak soon, i won't ever reach my peak again. i need to find the right feelings.

and the weekends are half gone. always too short. always too busy. weekdays are dreaded nowadays.

i've been thinking of big things. of the near but not so near future. should i or should i not? it's my choice. a big choice. a big leap. let's see where this brings me.
-cheryl
10:41 PM





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