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Friday, March 23, 2007

the fear in my heart is real, i don't want to lose the things that are so important to me. sometimes i wish i was more perfect in every other thing. i want to be the best. i try to my very best. but, am i the best?

i'm sorry if anyone cared too much and got hurt in the process cos i never meant to hurt anyone. there are too many things beyond my control and my feelings are way beyond my grasp. i wish i could accommodate everyone but i obviously can't. if i can, then there's nothing special anymore.

i feel so stressed up suddenly by everything, how can i be the perfect human being? i wish i could care less for everyone. i'm sorry if i sound hostile or cold, it's not that i don't care, it's only because i don't wish to complicate matters. i need to be firm, i need to make my intentions clearer. i don't wish to mislead.

and recently i sat thinking of things and those fears crept into my heart. i have to remind myself why and what brought me where i am today. i gave up trying to keep things at bay cos once i've started i can't stop. i don't wanna stop and i don't ever want anything or anyone to affect me.

i'm tired. goodnight.

i'll always be just one step behind
ever ready to catch you when you fall
never failing to walk beside you
through difficult times
ever willing to take two steps and carry you
but for now,
i'll stay one step behind.

-cheryl
2:16 AM





Cheryl

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