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Monday, December 18, 2006

这一次连我自己
都说我毫不悔意
爱上你终于我发现
我还有勇气
为你我觉得遗憾的是
我不够自信
不了解你说了
一些话的用意

life has been good to me these days. good but you know with human beings, good is never good enough. there are certain issues that are conflicting in my heart and they're boring a hole in there, slowly but surely. and there are some days, i can't even believe the me that i've become.

i thought about this a long time, and i've still not come to a conclusion. i guess i never will. until the day i face up to it and decide to do something about it. it's so easy to feel not up to things or people. and these days, my inferiority complex has been getting to me big time. even though the facts may not be that way, but that's almost how i feel all the time when i think of you.

what would you do, if there's someone you've cherished and thought of for a long time. and all these months you've kept this person at bay and have never let it on to anyone for fear of having to face the real facts that you actually do cherish that someone? and when you finally decide to come to terms with it, you're stuck and you don't know what to do. risks. are they really worth taking?

it has been running through my head too many times each day. now i begin to wonder if i'm even sane at all.

几乎是所有时间在想你
快乐之后是压抑
有没有过这样的呼吸
幸福啊只要一个眼神的交集
我们拥抱着自己
我们渴望着相遇

and somehow i've lost alot of passion for things and people through all the pangs of life. i guess the it has somehow dragged me down to a certain lowness and at this point, i've come to refuse many things that i've had burning passion for. and all the beliefs that i used to have, they seem to have been lost in the midst of all these setbacks and letdowns. maybe someday i'll find them back, but now i guess i'm different.

so i guess it's time to take down those photos and i no longer need to depend on you anymore. cos recently i realised that you're seldom a source of inspiration or joy anymore. you've become quite a chore i can't wait to rid myself off and driven me to realise how harsh the world is even when we're nice. i guess unconditional love will reach a point of return, when it has been abused beyond a threshold of tolerance. it's no more and i'm no more.

flyaway
当我不顾一切
无止尽追寻
是你的人
是你的心
日日夜夜陪我在这里
-cheryl
8:28 AM





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