Tuesday, December 05, 2006
indeed, beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. who's to say we're ugly? and why would we bother about what others think, if we see ourselves as beautiful? but more often than not, we're so affected by what others think and feel, that we forget who we really are. we change and keep changing too often, to keep up with the expectations of people. and it's those who're often not so close to us, that we strive to change for. and we forget, those who really care. those who stand by us, even when we show our ugly side.
我想她的确是
更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔
优雅成熟懂事
如果我退回到
好朋友的位置
你也就不再需要
为难成这样子
很爱很爱你
所以愿意舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你
只有让你
拥有爱情
我才安心
finally saw the doctor today. and i guess this time i'm really seriously sick. the doc had to give me extra strong dosages of medicine which costed 2bucks each and i had 10 of that. just one single kind of medication already costed 20bucks! the total bill came up to a whopping 45bucks! goodness. i had some medicine to strengthen my poor lungs too. sigh. guess i've been neglecting my body and subjecting it to all kinds of bad weather lately. abusing myself.
doc gave 3 days of leave. that's like the most i've ever gotten, not counting the 10 days i got after i got concussed. laughs. now i feel like a weakling. but somehow i'm enjoying it. when you've been strong too long, you just relish in the weakness. i don't want to be strong, at least not now.
是我勇敢太久
决定为你一个人而活
不能说出口
那么折麽
勇敢了太久
城市充满短暂的烟火
无处躲
照亮了沉默
明白是寂寞
taking a step back from school and maybe from training too. it's already helping. the first dose of medicine has taken effect. other than some drowsiness, i'm feeling so much better, thank God! and having so much time at home to myself helps. i guess sometimes isolation heals the soul. and i've been thinking much of the things that used to mean so much to me lately. i wonder if they still mean as much now, maybe more, maybe less? i've yet to decipher some of my thoughts though.
我真的懂
你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有陪在你身边
当你寂寞时候
别再看着我说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂
come home, little girl. it's time to come home.
-cheryl
5:59 PM
Cheryl
pretty faces
