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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

if a picture paints a thousand words
then why can't i paint you?
the words will never show
the you i've come to know

and maybe you really don't know, how much you meant. and how much it meant to me, to have you by my side. or maybe i was never, good enough for you.

it was always a joy, watching you smile at the things i did for you. always a joy lighting up my heart, watching you laugh at the silly things i used to do. and then today i was thinking of how you've smiled and laughed. and i realised, i forgot how you laughed. forgot how you sounded. and it made me sad, cos i think it's been a long time since i heard you laughed the way you used to.

waking up feeling wounded and small, wondering why in the world do things happen in such ways. and it's no consolation, watching someone else being happy. the fire spreads and it burns a hole in my heart. if anyone even knows how a heartburn feels like.

and maybe i've seen through it all. and i've known all that would've been. i know i'm reaching somewhere near the end and this time there's no light. i just wanted to hold you longer. to cherish the last of these times with you. wish you could just be like before, and let me remember how it feels like, to have had you, loved you and be loved by you. just let me hold onto the memories that will be all that's left when you're gone.

and all those words left unspoken, will you still hear them? i wonder if you still even care. and after all that's done and gone, i still feel the pain when i see you frown. smiling for you, not crying for you. i wish i could smile for you forever. i wish. i wish.

and beyond all the hurt and all the pain, i look right at you, and i can't help but love you more. and if you find this ridiculous, just laugh. maybe it really is.

and for all that has happened, i'll still choose to love you all over again.

but for now, just let me hold on. for you, my prettyfat girlfriend i'll do all i can. but how can i fight someone who isn't even there? still trying to..waiting..hoping. just let me love you awhile longer, will you?

if a man could be two places at one time,
i'd be with you.
tomorrow and today,
beside you all the way.
if the world should stop revolving,
spinning slowly down to die,
i'd spend the end with you.

and when the world was through,
then one by one the stars would all go out,
then you and i would simply fly away.
-cheryl
12:54 AM





Cheryl

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